"on leave" events

had a busy day yesterday, i took a leave
from work to arrange my payments for
the monthly amortization of the lot i
acquired and monthly dues for my
retirement plan. funny because i bumped
into an old college friend while i was on
my way to ortigas.

afterwards, i went to glorietta and thought
of watching a movie because it's been
a long time, i think the last i've seen was
"must love dogs". i'd like to watch "land
of the dead" but i was too scared to watch
it alone. i can manage watching horror
movies as long as i have my girlfriend or at
least someone with me. since i'm alone i
just decided to watch a chinese action
movie (i forgot the title hehehe). i felt a bit
miserable because of watching a movie
alone, not like before where i have bhe
with me, and because the movie sucked.

senti

"my morning starts to shine with teardrops in my eyes
and here i am alone starting to realize..."

as i and my batchmates were having brunch at the canteen
in our office today, i heard a song having the lyrics above.

i heard this song played over the radio many times before,
it really didn't have an effect on me except for today.
it really struck my heart as if it wants to fall down my chest.

ewan ko, na s senti na naman siguro ako... *sigh*
buti naubos ko pa yung food na inorder ko, para kasing
wala akong gana kumain lately :(

worried and stressed out (outlet part 3)

shigoto ha mainichi, mainichi
taihen desuyou(it's so tiring everyday at work)!
i'm really feeling the idea of being a corporate
slave. i've been working overtime in the office
for two straight weeks, extending my work
hours up to 9pm and sometimes up to 10pm in
the evening.

i never dreamed of being a workaholic, really!
*sigh* i haven't finished working on my current
module and there's another one waiting in line.
bad trip! soreha totemo tsukaremashita (i'm so
tired of it)!

in my pursuit to find a motivation for all this
corporate crap, i just thought of the plans and
goals tha i've set in my life. one of which is
the lot i acquired last year. i'm done paying
the downpayment just this month, and so i have
a couple of extra bucks to save for future
investments. also, all of the loans that i have
will be over by the end of this year, yay!!!

one thing that's been bothering me lately
is that i haven't heard from my bhe since
yesterday.. and i'm starting to worry already.
i never thought that it would be so hard
being far away from the person you love so
dearly. i don't wanna worry about it too much
because it can affect my job, but it's so hard
not to be concerned of her.

please God help me to trust in you, that
you won't let something bad happen to bhe,
that you would always keep her safe,
and that you would help us to be strong for
each other and to trust in you always.

it's comforting to know that "you won't
let us be tempted beyond what we can
bear". i know you allowed this situation
in our lives because we can overcome.
help us to have faith and to trust in You.