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"If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it"

outlet part 2

saturday:

the feeling of missing someone has the tendency to make
me feel depressed and lonely so i decided to go to american
cemetery to give myself time to grieve and pacify all the
things that i've been feeling. this is the time when i really
appreciate that i have someone whom i can talk to anytime
that i want, someone whom i can cry and just express all
the burdens that my heart carries. i appreciate all the more
the relationship that i have with God especially right now
that someone who's so dear to me is far away.

it was a peaceful and rainy afternoon that day, i forgot to
bring along my umbrella so i got a bit wet. i felt God's
comfort when a cold and gentle breeze passed by while
i prayed. it was soothing and refreshing, i felt like God
wanted me to experience how it's like to be in amsterdam
hehehe =) anyways, i really had a great time and i read
some scriptures in the book of ecclesiates where solomon
wrote how everything like pleasure, wisdom, fame, etc.,
are meaningless, that there's a time for everything, and
how God made everything beautiful in it's time.

afterwards, i went to glorietta to meet my sister and have
a date with her. we watched the movie 'must love dogs'.
we had to wait for a while so we can watch it from the
start. so we decided to go to national bookstore to spend
some time and browse some books. i browsed a booke
written by bo sanchez, it's about how our past lives should
not hinder us from having a fulfilled future. it's a very very
very good read. i appreciate bo's courage and humility in
sharing how God radically changed his life and his
perspective about our our failures and how we can use it
as a motivation to pursue a happy life. time is up, we went
on to watch the movie.

it was a romantic comedy film, a feel good movie. we
wanted to watch 'if only' but we weren't sure if it was
replaced already or is not yet showing. also, i wanted
to see the part where the line 'what would you do if you
were given the chance to be with someone that you
lost?' was asked. anyways, the movie ended where
couples from the movie shared how they met their
partners. i smiled while i watched this part because it
made me think of how me and donna met. we both
didn't know what was coming hehehe.

sunday:

we(dad, erwin, candy, tito base, tita leni, tito chris, and
kuya butch) went to chinese general hospital early in the
morning to donate blood for my cousin's heart operation.
this is my second time to donate blood but i was still
scared of the needle that would be sticked in my arm.
we ate at ping ping's lechon for our lunch.

after our sunday worship service, my family had a get
together at glorietta for dinner. i had to leave earlier
because i still have to visit my bhe's parents in cavite
to spend time with them. nanay was waiting for me, she
told me that bhe's lola and some of her aunts also
waited but they left already. nanay and i had a great talk.
she advised me to be strong and to cheer up and to
continue on with my life as if nothing's changed. she
got teary eyed when she told me how donna was being
strong not only for me but for them as well. that her
situation is harder because we're all here and she's
alone in a place far away from us. we talked some
more and i went home already.

i had a busy and productive week... but i still miss her,
and love her more everyday.


for the boys

outlet 1 (series ito!!!)

haaaay, naisipan ko na magsulat na muna habang kinakausap ng boss ko yung isa naming opismate. eh may kailangan kasi akong i coordinate sa kanya kaso nga busy pa sya.

kaya eto, gusto ko lang mag vent ng nararamdaman ko, dito na lang muna sa blog kasi wala pa akong nakakausap na matino.

i really miss my bhe, she took off for netherlands and she'll be staying there for a year. there's not a single day that i don't think about her. there are times that i really have to shake the thought out of my head just to continue with my tasks here at work... and it's not easy.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, haaaaaaaaaaaaay, at isa pang haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay ang hirap pala ng ganito, para akong alcoholic na tumigil sa pag inom ng alak. sa pag aalala ko sa kanya eh napa search ako sa google for information about netherlands. nalaman ko na amsterdam pala ang capital nito, maraming windmills and blazing flower fields, dutch ang language, the weather is mostly gray, locals wouldn't mind what you do for as long as you don't harm others, at kung anu ano pa. haaaay lalu ko lang yata na miss si bhe. gusto ko na nga umuwi eh kaso may kailangan pa akong tapusin dito sa office.

ang hirap, parang lagi akong may hinahanap, lagi akong di mapakali, at natutulala. parang gusto ko umiyak na ayaw kung minsan. ano bang nangyayari saken? haaaaaaaaaay!!!

naisip ko rin na baka nahihirapan din sya dun, kung ako nga eh kasama ko ang pamilya at kaibigan ko ay ganito na ako, lalu na siguro sya.

God, miss ko lang po talaga sya, please continue to guide and protect her. please help us and our relationship to be strong. i know you're in control and ultimately it's you who gives us comfort to whatever that bothers us.

i feel like i need a long vacation... di pa naman ako sanay na ako yung naiiwan. iniisip ko na lang na mabilis lang naman yung isang taon eh. pero ang tagal pa rin eh!!! sniff sniff sniff =(

"trust in the Lord with all your heart and
lean not on your own understanding. in
all your ways acknowledge Him and He will
make your paths straight." - Prov. 3:5-6

"missing you"

feeling the depths of loneliness
embracing the memory of your absence
as daylight turns to darkness
yearning, mourning for your presence

an empty park is all i see
a place with you, this i know
our happy memories follow me
visions of you everywhere i go

a purpose in everything
to trust without something to hold
to all things an ending
in your arms again, happiness unfolds

~*~*~*~

iba yata talaga pag na de depress ako,
nakakagawa ako ng poem ng di oras.
ginawa bang outlet?!?! haaaaaaaaaay
i really miss you bhe!