silver lining

escape

how do i find peace in pandemonium,
in the midst of a busy life
close my eyes and savor the moment
dream of days we shared our lives

listening to our heart's music
i watch other people pass by
ironically escape the chaos around
thoughts of you brings a natural high

a smile sprung from my short escape
enough to make me through the day
this is how i cope while waiting
dreaming while you're away

~*~*~*~



i miss you d....

got these replies from the poetry forum
about this poem:

===
Guess it is true HopelessRomantic... distance does make the heart grow fonder!
from: Lion~*
===
Just so ... thoughts reach far ...

Beautiful.

Love,
Margherita
===
This is wonderful. My husband is away for work all the time so I can relate. In fact, our first wedding anniversary is this Sunday and he'll be working in another state for it. It's so good to be reminded that I am not alone. That there are others who feel the same as us.

Thanks for sharing!!
from: treasuredgem
===
you totally are a hopeless romantic!!!!!!!!!!
but your poem is the bomb
from: muchoki

the day after typhoon "milenyo"

Typhoon batters Metro Manila, Bicol

'It's like waking up from a nightmare'

THE STRONGEST typhoon to hit Metro Manila directly in 11 years toppled trees and billboards, triggered flash floods and landslides, shuttered offices and the financial markets, and caused a Luzon-wide power outage on Thursday.

Typhoon "Milenyo" (international name: Xangsane) brought Metro Manila to a near-standstill with all flights and sea travel in and out of the region canceled. It also forced officials to suspend operations of two commuter train systems.

AT A GLANCE
• Classes in all levels still suspended in Metro Manila this Friday
• All government offices still closed in Metro Manila this Friday
• At least 18 persons dead
• Luzon-wide blackout
• Thousands of trees felled
• Billboards and lampposts torn down
• Trucks and cars overturned
• Flooding and landslides
• Thousands stranded
• Flights and sea travel canceled
• Overhead trains systems LRT and MRT stopped
• Trading on stock and currency markets suspended


magallanes flyover

manila

~*~*~*~

got this news update from inquirer news.

typhoon boredom

~*~*~*~

attended my bestfriend's(angel) wedding today. her husband was of
indian origin and his name is praveen. they met at dubai while angel
was managing figaro's branch there and praveen was a regular customer.
it was a stormy day, typhoon milenyo hit makati having signal# 3.

was about to go home after the wedding when i noticed that electricity
was cut from our neighborhood, i think the entirety of manila's power
was cut down because of all the electric posts that were toppled down
by the storm so i decided to go to our office instead.

out of boredom, was browing through my friend's blog and found this
website that calculates one's celebrity look-alikes. it's funny because
i tried to calculate my celebrity look-alikes twice and it generated
the same result. i have jericho rosales, tom cruise, and joshua jackson
in my list hehehe =) also tried to generate one for donna.

stressed out and 2 days of sleepless nights

how much can a heart endure for love?
how long can love wait against our need for it?
how do you keep the love alive while distance takes it's toll?

~*~*~*~

i'm tired... soooo tired

funny quotes

"Guys, let's call it tonight!"
"All of a suddenly..."
"C'mon! Let's get it on with it!"
"When it rains, it's four."
"Thanks God!"
"The nerves!" or "The nerd!"
"The idea crossed at the back of my mind."
"(name of person), eat your hat out!"
"This is our rooster of clients..."
"The more the manyer."
"It's a no-win-win situation."
"Burn the bridge when you get there."
"What are friends are for?"
"Well well well. Look do we have here!"
"Been there, been that."
"Base-to-base casis."
"You're barking at the wrong dog."
"I'm only human nature."
"The feeling is actual."
"Get the most of both worlds."
"Please me alone!"
"It's as brand as new."
"I couldn't care a damn!"
"what's your next class before this?"
"nothing in this world is perfect except the word change."
"Im sorry, my boss just passed away." (translation: kakadaan lang ng boss nya.)
"Hello,.. for a while, please hang yourself..."

fallen

felt unloved, alone today
confused from some of your ways
unholy hours filled with longings
i know everything has an ending

i lie with awakened thoughts
my body aches for comfort
drained from this struggle
exhausted from this battle

i seek and reach for you
hoping your love is true
i fall, every second counts
you're nowhere to be found

i bleed, my spirit broken
from the heights i've fallen
scattered pieces of my soul
i thought you'd make me whole

~*~*~*~

i suddenly woke up @ 3:30am and
i can't go back to sleep, so i just
decided to purge the bad stuffs in
my heart.

sunday service and ethel's birthday

sang 'natutulog ba ang diyos' in our service last sunday.
didn't have enough time for practice, just bought the videoke
cd sunday morning and practiced for about 1 hr only. eventhough,
i still managed to pull it through. played with zack after
the first half of the service who's getting stronger and
smarter everyday =)

went to ethel's birthday celebration later that day. there
were lots of food on the table, lumpiang shanghai,
pimiento cheese rolls with sugar sprinkle, carbonara, spaghetti,
potato balls, chocolate mousse cake, turon, and pork mechado.
good thing we had ariel and his van with us, we didn't have
a hard time going there.

a tearjerker communion message

jonalynquita: edwin, musta? ang daming nagcoment re: ur message
me: hehehe :D
me: ganun ba? puros nagative comments ba?
me: hehehe
jonalynquita: not negativ....so heartfelt dw...naiyak dn dw sila
jonalynquita: :)
jonalynquita: usually mga married sisters ang nagcoment
me: ah talaga.. it was really uncalled for
me: ewan ko bakit biglang nagka ganun
me: actually rush ko lang talaga na prepare yung message 12nn d2 sa opis ko ginawa
me: eh sabi ko ko lang kay God, gusto ko lang talaga ma inspire yung mga disciples sa communion, kaso lipas na isang oras wala pa ako na c compose
me: so i just settled for that story
me: sobrang familiar na sakin.. kaya sabi ko yun na lang
jonalynquita: maganda nmn ung mesage mo e
me: sabi ko, bahala na basta mabigay ko na lang yung communion message... pero gusto ko talaga bigay yung best ko
me: kaso yun lang talaga
jonalynquita: kaso di napigilan ang pagiyak hehe:)
me: tapos ayun, nung kumanta ako bago mag communion.. bigla na lang nangilid luha ko
me: halong kaba.. halu halu na
jonalynquita: ahhh
me: ayaw na tumigil nung luha.. hehehe :D
me: anong sabi nila sayo? hehehe
jonalynquita: :) overjoyed ka cguro sa grace that u have that privilege to talk
me: nakakahiya nga eh, feeling ko pipiyok ako habang nagsasalita
jonalynquita: sabi nila nahawa rw sila :) ok nga e kc communion naman un e
jonalynquita: :D
me: nakakatuwa naman kung ganun, at least na glorified si God
jonalynquita: it's the heart that counts
me: hinanap ko na nga lang agad si zack, para ma divert yung attention
me: hehehe :D
jonalynquita: :D
me: pagkatapos nung communion :D
jonalynquita: better to be heartfelt than talking with only your mind :)
jonalynquita: or mouth
me: hehehe... haaaaaaaaaaaaayyy.. i'm just glad it's over
me: tapos ako pa rin pala yung mag p pray
jonalynquita: hirap nga lng tlaga magsalita pag ganon...but u did great bro:D
jonalynquita: hehehehe
me: naku, eh pag nag p pray ka.. haaaaaaayyy
me: lalu na
me: ang hirap magsalita hahaha :))
me: thanks for sharing kung ano response nila
jonalynquita: one technique na tinuro saken ni mama pag nahihirapan ako magsalita dahil sa kaba or iyak...huminga ng malalim at lakasan ang boses
me: at least maganda naman pala yung kinalabasan
jonalynquita: yup!

~*~*~*~

here's the scripture i've used:

46Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, 47praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.

Acts 2:46-47

yep, it's official...

by God's grace i made it =)
six months in 'h e a d s t r o n g' is challenging but also a blast!

@ trained for 2 weeks about Oracle JDeveloper, ADF Framework, Oracle Workflow, CMMi
@ sang at our valentines party last february =)
@ had our company outing at club morocco zambales
@ started project implementation last april
@ joined our company's basketball tournament =)
@ sang and played the guitar for the birthday celebrants here =)
@ enjoy working with my team
@ and finally, be a regular employee! yey!

more to come...

about true love

true love begins only when one falls out of love, because it has to be willed. there's got to be a decision involved. while you're in love with someone, love is involuntary. you just love. (the feeling of love falls on you like a brick from the sky hitting your head -- wham! -- and you don't know what hit you.) but when you fall out of love, and you still make a choice to love, then that's the beginning of true love.

The Road Less Travelled
By: Scott Peck

~*~*~*~

i just finished reading "how to find your one true love" by bo sanchez and i liked what he quoted above =) made me think about where my relationship with God is at. often times i would ask myself why go through all the hardship fighting to make the right decisions and to be a good person where in fact i see others do the opposite and not feel any guilt about it? why go through the weekly church service eventhough there are days i don't feel like it and not inspired anymore? the quote above made me realize that i do the things i'm doing because i made a decision to love God(which i often times fail), i willed it, and i felt a pinch in my heart because this is what true love means and it just keeps getting better through the years.

~*~*~*~

also, had our lunch at teriyaki boy at mall of asia. i ate
gyu asupara blah blah... hehehe =) it was delicious, short slices
of asparagus veggie wrapped in thin slices of meat(beef) and soiled
in special barbeque sauce. my officemate ordered tofu rice
toppings with kani(veggie salad with caviar).

we strolled for a while and spotted mercedes benz's exhibit which
featured their formula 1 race car.

21st century communication

thank God for the internet, we can commmunicate and see
each other at the same time via webcam and voice chat.

i can't imagine how people from the past handled their
long distance relationships. expensive calls and conventional
mails!



@netopia SM Makati, 08.06.2006

unfortunate event on a friday again!

had a morning and afternoon interview for two european
companies. ate lunch together with my sister at enterprise
towers. had a headache after my morning interview,
i also got 1k stolen by thieves from my wallet when i
took a jeepney ride back to the office. lucky thing
was that i got my wallet back and lost only the cash
inside it. i can imagine the hassle of processing all
the cards i could have lost. i'd be more careful next time,
i just look back and think that something worse could
have happened. i'm just glad that i wasn't hurt and only
lost a minimum amount of money.

pungok jr. =)

daniela veronica q. dela cruz (7th week)

cutie cute cute!

my handwriting

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

mitchikoy's dolphin encounters =)

i've had encounters with polar bears, panda bears, sea lions, and siberian tigers...

i'd love to see a live dolphin too! sooo cute =)

inside me

"inside me"

lonely alone and depressed
why do i feel all this emptiness?
frustrated, angry and confused
i ask myself, where is happiness?

i seek for the reasons why
having questions left unanswered
i don't want to hear a lie
and have my hopes shattered

what is life without you?
can't you see i'm sad and blue?
what is real and true?
then i realize, all i need is you

you fill all my emptiness
in you, i have peace
in the midst of my sadness
i found you, my missing piece

07.19.2004

~*~*~*~

a poem i wrote inspired by amy lee's song "october".


to the One who completes me, thank you for filling up
the void and eternal portion in my heart.

"...He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end".
- Ecclesiastes 3:11

scripture to meditate for one more year

He has made everything beautiful in its time...

Ecclesiastes 3:11

friday escapade

went to mall of asia with my officemates and project manager to have our lunch. we ate at chef d' angelo. i ordered fish and chips with green ice tea. 'twas also the first time of joey to visit MOA and also the first time for us to meet engel's gf. rushed back to office after a scrumptious lunch =)

future family members

John Keannu T. Quita
Aileen Kelsey T. Quita

song of the moment...

Somewhere Only We Know
by Keane

~*~*~*~

i love this song, 'twas used as the background track for
"the lakehouse" movie trailer.

i miss you d....

superman returns

watched the movie @GB3 last thursday with tyrone, mariel, joseph, meanne, eugene, gina, imee, roselyn, lovela, a churchmate from cebu, and... i already forgot who (old age?)hehehe =)

anyway, it was a great movie... *ang gwapo* sighed gina everytime brandon routh's face is shown up close onscreen hehehe.

would have even been a better experience if we had the chance to watch it in SM mall of asia's IMAX theater, unfortunately it's fully booked for three weeks.

bayad dito, bayad doon

dami kong binayaran this month end... whew!

insurance, apartment, retirement, and the lot i bought.

dumaan lang sa ATM ko sweldo hehehe =)

our online slideshow via YouTube.com

dudeski and donskieh

Kung Wala Ka
by Hale

Natapos na ang lahat
andito pa rin ako
Heto nakatulala
Sa mundo, sa mundo...

Di mo maiisip
Di mo makikita
Mga pangarap kong
Para sa'yo, para sa'yo...

Ohh...hindi ko maisip kung wala ka
Ohh...sa buhay ko..

Nariyan ka pa ba?
Di ka na matanaw
Kung merong madaraanang
Pasulong, pasulong...

Ohh...hindi ko maisip kung wala ka
Ohh...sa buhay ko..

Sundan mo...
Ang paghimig na lulan na aking pinagtatanto
Sundan mo...
Ang paghimig ko

Ohh...hindi ko maisip kung wala ka
Ohh...sa buhay ko..

kewl picasa

tried this cool software called picasa and made a picture collage of donna and the kids in netherlands. i miss hear every single day and i love her sooooooooooooooo much!!! 

cutie cute cute

ang gwapong si zakoykoy =)

we went to SM sta rosa(last saturday), bought some chips and drinks at the supermart and then watched X-Men 3... solb!!!

it's a (long distance) date!!!

another one to drool for...



~*~*~*~

[quote]
...eventhough this is cleary impossible, it's amazing!
[end quote]

i am truly a sucker for love stories =)
we'll be watching this movie... though we're
two years apart (i can relate...)

the best example of perseverance

~*~*~*~

naruto kun, i'm learning a lot from this boy's character.

hontoni sugoi!

reflections for today 05-19-2006

Vacuum Cleaner

I had a little wrestling match with my vacuum cleaner this week. It was doing the wimpy-clean thing; you know, where you have to get down on your hands and knees and hand-feed it every little fuzz ball and potato chip crumb? If I'm going to do that, I might as well not have a vacuum cleaner. I could just pick up the fuzz and chips and throw them in the trash myself, couldn't I? Cut out the middle man.

Anyway, the thing had lost all its "suck-ocity." So I got it in a headlock and looked underneath to find out why. I found a little piece of sock, a length of yarn that could've been an entire sweater in another life, a hunk of rug from the kids' bathroom and a bunch of those little plastic price tag things. No wonder it didn't want to work! If all that stuff doesn't affect a vacuum's suck-ocity, I don't know what will.

At least it gave me a little reminder. When we let our minds suck up the wrong things, we can't expect them to work the way they're supposed to. There's so much garbage on TV, in magazineseverywhere. If we let our minds suck up trashy stuff, we shouldn't be surprised when we have a hard time dwelling on the things we're supposed to. We're told in Philippians 4:8 what kind of things we're supposed to think about: "Finally, my friends, keep your minds on whatever is true, pure, right, holy, friendly, and proper. Don't ever stop thinking about what is truly worthwhile and worthy of praise." (CEV)

There's lots less wrestling with our minds when we remember to fill them with the right things.
And personally, I'm also going to try to remember not to let my kids use the vacuum any more.

~*~*~*~

reminders are truly important, especially for a person like me who
easily forget a lot of things... excluding my gf of course =)

benjo and thet's prenup pics

one of my close friend and former officemate, benjo, is getting married on june 10 (this year) and i'm part of the entourage hehehe =)


this one's my fav (click on the pic for more...)

also engaged are my churchmates mark & rose, and jeremy & tess.

waiting

4 months to go... ooopss... make that 4 months and 1 year to go *sigh*

ang tagaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal... ayoko na talaga magbilang =(

if i'm a southpark character...

i would look like this =)



this one i got from toni's blog

outlet of my depression

"magkasama"

ang daming problema
kapos pa sa pera
at idagdag mo pa
kasi umalis ka

eh bakit ba kasi
ganito ang buhay
parang walang silbi
walang kulay

nung andito ka
ok pa, kaya pa
kahit maraming problema
hindi ko iniinda

hindi sa nakasandal ako sa'yo
pag wala ka hindi kumpleto
nalulungkot lang ako
sanay kasing magkasama tayo

~*~*~*~

wala lang, trip ko lang mag vent.
baka kasi magawa kong kanta.. malay mo?

bored

holy week na... walang pasok... pero wala ring plano...

sentipede

Everything
by Lifehouse

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

*sigh*

club morocco march 2006 - company outing

view from our bus

entrance to club morocco resort, subic zambales

view from our room

inside our room with lester, me, and joey

lobby roof art

lobby area... just chillin out with joey =)

strike a pose for mah girlfriend (wish u were here!!!)

lunch time =)

saraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap!!!

dramatic view outside the hotel

a carribean getaway???

and another one?

2nd day, island hopping =)

in a boat, island hopping

survivor island?

love month activities

>went to our church in angeles to perform for their valentine's day party, played the guitar with marlon as the vocalist. had a great time jamming with the pampanguenio's =) in fairness, they all sing well!
>celebrated valentines day alone *huhuhu*
>went to jubilation, binan laguna with my brother. we checked out his "small place" in this planet =)
>busy as usual with work, mostly preparations for the BIG project.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!

"basta lang..."

pilit nililibang ang sarili
upang panahon ay mapadali
ganunpaman sadyang mabagal
ewan ko ba, basta miss kita

bakit kahit saan pumunta
di lubusang maging masaya
kahit saang sulok mapadpad
ewan ko ba, basta kailangan kita

sa isang taon na pagsasama
ikaw ay mas nakilala
magkasama sa lungkot at saya
ewan ko ba, basta mahal kita

di man matugon mga sagot
sa mga katanungan ko
dito lang talaga ako sigurado
basta miss kita, kailangan kita, at mahal kita

birthday summary

it's my birthday today and here are some of the day's events:

- had lunch with my family, cake - courtesy of jona, ice cream - courtesy of my sis, rest of the food - courtesy of dadi di do du =)

- went to glorietta to have donna's digital pics developed, so i can bring them to her parent's house in cavite so they can get a glimpse of her winter experience in the netherlands

- talked to my bhe, exchanged sweet nothings over the phone

- prayed at oakwood park and thanked God for giving me another year to enjoy life



~*~*~*~

"...go in the strength you have..."
- Judges 6:14

morning scripture

got this one from ness...

For the Lord watches over the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked will perish..- PSALM 1:6...have a blessed day!!! merry christmas!!!!

"But God . . ."

[Joseph] left his garment in her hand, and fled and ran outside. —Genesis 39:12

What if Joseph had succumbed to the advances of Potiphar's wife? (Genesis 39). Imagine how he could have justified his sin. "But God, You don't want me to be unhappy, and you know how lonely it is here. Besides, I think I really love her."

What if Abram had disobeyed when God told him to leave Ur and head for parts unknown? (Genesis 12). What if he had said, "But God, I'm established here. I can't afford to risk everything on an uncertain future. I've got to watch out for Sarai. I'm staying."

Praise God that Joseph and Abram did the right thing. Joseph fled temptation; he ran from sin. Abram left Ur; he journeyed in obedience.

In life, we face both of these kinds of choices. Sometimes temptation rises up in front of us. When it does, we can either run and reap God's rewards—or we can give in, reap the sad consequences, and then make sorry excuses. Sometimes we sense that God is leading us in a particular direction. We can choose either to follow Him and trust His omniscience—or we can offer flimsy excuses and live a life of disobedience.

The abundant life of godliness is far better than a life of excuses and despair. Let's live so that we won't give in to the desire to say, "But God . . ." —Dave Branon

God does not demand success—just obedience.

jeepney driver incident

i won't forget this one...
(on my way to the office)

driver: o yung mga wala pang bayad, magbayad na...
(mga tatlong beses nya inulit)

di kaagad ako nakapagbayad dahil masikip
sa loob ng jeep.
(magbabayad talaga ako at wala akong plano mag 123)

pagdating sa town center, nagbayad ako, pero...
(yung lesson na natutunan ko, akin na lang muna)

month end activities for november

went to carl's birthday celebration at robinsons
imus, cavite last saturday. dropped by at the 'fourth'
to meet some of bhe's folks. it was the first
time carl called me 'tito' =)

had a sport fest service last sunday.
joined in the sack race contest and our team won.
went to quezon city and helped my brother
setup thin client linux network using LTSP.

had a family group leader's retreat at antipolo last
monday(holiday). had a lesson titled: "can you drink
the cup". we went for a swim afterwards, ate, and
then ate again hehehe. had a deep talk with tyrone,
asked advices regarding relationships.

after the retreat, we went to a nearby carnival.
had fun target shooting and riding the horror train.
a hilarious train rather =) we laughed our hearts
out instead of getting spooked.

called up my bhe before the day ended. exchanged
sweet nothings over the phone. i miss her soooo
much and there's only 24 days left before
christmas, buti na lang di ko pa naririnig
yung 'pasko na sinta ko' pag nagkataon, patay!
*sigh*

on making decisions (the family man revisited)

my long time friend jess (back in campus days) sent
an instant message asking me how i'm doing...

jay: bro may last question ako... musta na kayo ni GF mo?
E: eto, medyo kelangan talaga namin mag trust kay God... nasa ibang bansa sya ngayon.. isang taon pa sya dun
E: eh medyo nakaka struggle na
E: ang hirap pala ng long distance relationship
E: nakaka pagod
jay: actually mahirap talaga yan
jay: pero thats the way for you both para ma test ang inyong relationship
jay: iba iba din kasi love story natin
E: eh bakit ba kasi kelangan pa dumaan sa test palaga? nakakapagod rin kasi
E: *palagi
jay: each relationships is unique
jay: oo nga, i understand exactly what you feel
jay: you decide both, baka naman pwede umuwi na sya for the sake of your relationship.
jay: parang katulad nung sa movie ni Family Man
jay: yung kay Nicolas Cage
jay: ganda nun, its all about faith and making decision
E: yeah, i've seen that movie
E: isa sa favorite ko actually yan
E: ako may decision, pero kulang sa faith
E: si gf may faith pero wala pang decision
E: gets mo?
jay: oo nga eh

~*~*~*~

i would just like to quote a line by Kate in the
movie "the family man" when jack wanted to
move his family from the only home they've
shared together to the city.

"When you got on that plane, I was sure it was over. I left the airport afraid I'd never see you again. And then you showed up the very next day. That was a good surprise. You know, I think about the decision you made... maybe I was being naive, but I believed that we would grow old together in this house. That we'd spend holidays here and have our grandchildren come visit us here. I had this image of us, all grey and wrinkly, and me working in the garden and you re-painting the deck. But things change. If you need this, Jack, if you really need this, I will take these kids from a life they love and I'll take myself from the only home we've ever shared together and I'll move wherever you need to go. I'll do that because I love you. I love you, and that's more important to me than our address. I choose us."

Difficult Days

my quiet time for today:

"Surely goodness and love will follow me
ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever."
-psalm 23:6

We buried my wife's father 2 days before Thanksgiving, and every year the holiday is tinged with the sorrow of losing him. No doubt your calendar contains some of these difficult days that roll around once a year, bringing fresh reminders of losses that still hurt and people you still miss. A Wall Street Journal article calls these dates "emotional land mines" and says they may be even more difficult to face when they coincide with national holidays or anniversaries of significant events.

Grief counselors point out that taking a positive step can help us deal with grief. One year we planted a tree to mark the anniversary of a parent's death and the birth of a grandson on the same day. A scholarship fund or a memorial gift can benefit others while honoring the memory of a loved one. But a deep healing of spirit is a gift from God.

You may know Psalm 23 by heart, but try reading it with new eyes today. This familiar passage of comfort proclaims: "Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life" (v.6). Not just some of the days—all the days.

When we traverse the emotional minefield of painful memories, the Good Shepherd is with us on every difficult day. —David McCasland

"The sweetest experience of God's love
can be found in times of sorrow."

distance is taking it's toll

i didn't have a good night sleep today...
i wish i could sleep and wake up on the day
where everything's back to normal.

why do i always have to go through this kind of
agony?

a lot of questions popped in my mind, my body
wanted to rest already, but it's the opposite
with my mind.

~*~*~*~

which is harder? not having a girlfriend and no
one to worry about, or have one but is in a distant
country???

detoxify your mind

break time muna... mapapalaban na naman ako sa overtime
tonight. it's 7:45pm right now, and i just thought of writing
a post in my blog for the following reasons:

1. it's my blog's birthday! (november 12)
2. i need a short break and detoxify my mind
3. curiosity about amsterdam's weather

wow! my blog reached a milestone... it's been a year since
i started posting here. i'm amused as i browsed through my
old posts. i'm glad that i had my memories immortalized here.
i just wouldn't remember all of them because of my
forgetfulness 8-) i'm looking forward to another year of
wonderful memories yey! happy birthday dear blog! =)

it's a good thing to have a blog, this is like one of my stress
relievers. i get to free my mind of worries for a while and
detoxify my brains of all the Java-related-technical-so-and
so-work-related-stuffs at work. here, i can express if not all,
most of the things that really matters to me. i'm just glad
i found a sanctuary for my mind, heart, and soul (ang drama!)

though it's a fast-paced world and constant change every
now and then, a positive note about being in the information
technology industry is that you get access to tons and tons of
information. be it about the ant's internal organs, keeping in
touch with the latest trends, and up to date live images of
places around the world. with this, i've found a site where
i can see live images of what's it like in Amsterdam. to see the
busy city life, trams, the people, and weather. below is a sample
screen shot i got from one website. as you can see it's winter
already, 6 degree celcius(sun's up though) and the people are
wearing their coats to protect themselves from the cold weather.



it's 8:15pm, i'm done with my break, back to work! whew! =)

november rain

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.

- Courtney Kuchta -

~*~*~*~

tag-ulan na naman *sigh*

when the going gets tough...

overtime, overtime, and overtime @ work

for the spirit:

Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.
-psalm 27:14

Watch and pray so that
you will not fall into
temptation. The spirit is
willing, but the body is weak.
-matthew 26:41

for the body:



been drinking this for the
past days... and somehow
it helps

Thank God It's Friday!?!?!?

i came in the office today late not because i woke
up late or left the house late. it wasn't because
of heavy traffic either. it's an irritating reason why
i was late today.

it's because the bus i rode caught the green
light of the traffic light near the bus stop i was to
step off. i ended up having to walk 15 minutes going
back to place where i was supposed to alight.
#$%#$$%$#% and top it off with a sunny sunny day
and hot weather.

i kept my cool, got my umbrella and went on my way.
and to make things brighter, i knew that jaywalking
is strictly prohibited here in alabang, i even saw
the signs "no jaywalking". i was already in a hurry
because of the bus-stop-problem, and so i saw
the people crossing the streets on the pedestrian
lane, the problem was it wasn't really visible already
so you wouldn't know or care less if you were inside
the boarders of the lane or not. i thought, well i'm
in the right area, and besides i'm crossing with
the other folks but just a bit away from me and i don't
want to be late and you know what happened???

yes, i was caught... @#$%@#$%#$% and to think that
i have just dealt with the bus-stop-problem, here
comes another one #$%#$%#$ crap!!! this is insane!!!
i complained right on the spot and told the officers
that i was on the right crossing area but they told
me that they wouldn't have me caught if i did the
right thing. frustrated, i thought there's no way of
convincing these folks to reconsider. i ened up
going to the barangay hall to either be fined P100
or to do community service for 2 hours.

*sigh* i'm already late because of the stupid bus-
stop-problem and this jaywalking-problem. what
could make things worse??? yes there's another
one. i bring my exact allowance enought to spend
for my whole day at work. i do this so i can
discipline myself and have my savings. anyway,
i can widthraw anytime from a nearby atm in case
of emergency.

and so i had to walk again to a nearby mall that has
an atm. it slashed another 20 minutes just to pay for
the fine that i wasn't supposed to be paying for in the
first place and to think that my company would
also have my salary deducted because of being late.
#$@%#$%#$% having sweat all over, i got in the office
at 9:03am which was supposed to be at 8:15am.
i went straight to the comfort room to freshen up
and have a breather. what a way to start you day!!!
nevertheless, i have a lot of lessons learned from what
happened earlier. i'm done venting, TGIF!!! i'll just
enjoy the rest of the day.. back to work NOW!!! =)

weekend events

had an online date with bhe last saturday, we chatted
for 3 hours. afterwards, i went to glorietta to buy gifts
and to pray at oakwoods park. interestingly, a stranger
(a boy)approached me and solicited for monetary support
that will be used to support scholarship for less fortunate
students. in return, i would get a calendar with an
image of Jesus and other saints. he sells it for P50.
i refused and told him that i have a different belief but
he offered a ballpen instead for the same amount. to cut
the long story short, i bought one and i asked him what
motivated him to do this kind of stuff. he said, though
it was hard for him at first, it was his desire to help
that urged him to do so. this boy has a good heart,
i ended up inviting him to our church.

then we celebrated minnie and mitch's birthday last
sunday, after our service at KFC greenbelt. i gave
hand-made soaps to both of them as gifts. the soaps
were made using strawberry and cucumber. i also gave
ethel a little "the dog" keychain as my post-bday gift
to her.

also, gary gave a treat for the birthday celebrants.
we had a sharing session for the two before the
celebration ended.

"on leave" events

had a busy day yesterday, i took a leave
from work to arrange my payments for
the monthly amortization of the lot i
acquired and monthly dues for my
retirement plan. funny because i bumped
into an old college friend while i was on
my way to ortigas.

afterwards, i went to glorietta and thought
of watching a movie because it's been
a long time, i think the last i've seen was
"must love dogs". i'd like to watch "land
of the dead" but i was too scared to watch
it alone. i can manage watching horror
movies as long as i have my girlfriend or at
least someone with me. since i'm alone i
just decided to watch a chinese action
movie (i forgot the title hehehe). i felt a bit
miserable because of watching a movie
alone, not like before where i have bhe
with me, and because the movie sucked.

senti

"my morning starts to shine with teardrops in my eyes
and here i am alone starting to realize..."

as i and my batchmates were having brunch at the canteen
in our office today, i heard a song having the lyrics above.

i heard this song played over the radio many times before,
it really didn't have an effect on me except for today.
it really struck my heart as if it wants to fall down my chest.

ewan ko, na s senti na naman siguro ako... *sigh*
buti naubos ko pa yung food na inorder ko, para kasing
wala akong gana kumain lately :(

worried and stressed out (outlet part 3)

shigoto ha mainichi, mainichi
taihen desuyou(it's so tiring everyday at work)!
i'm really feeling the idea of being a corporate
slave. i've been working overtime in the office
for two straight weeks, extending my work
hours up to 9pm and sometimes up to 10pm in
the evening.

i never dreamed of being a workaholic, really!
*sigh* i haven't finished working on my current
module and there's another one waiting in line.
bad trip! soreha totemo tsukaremashita (i'm so
tired of it)!

in my pursuit to find a motivation for all this
corporate crap, i just thought of the plans and
goals tha i've set in my life. one of which is
the lot i acquired last year. i'm done paying
the downpayment just this month, and so i have
a couple of extra bucks to save for future
investments. also, all of the loans that i have
will be over by the end of this year, yay!!!

one thing that's been bothering me lately
is that i haven't heard from my bhe since
yesterday.. and i'm starting to worry already.
i never thought that it would be so hard
being far away from the person you love so
dearly. i don't wanna worry about it too much
because it can affect my job, but it's so hard
not to be concerned of her.

please God help me to trust in you, that
you won't let something bad happen to bhe,
that you would always keep her safe,
and that you would help us to be strong for
each other and to trust in you always.

it's comforting to know that "you won't
let us be tempted beyond what we can
bear". i know you allowed this situation
in our lives because we can overcome.
help us to have faith and to trust in You.