outlet 1 (series ito!!!)

haaaay, naisipan ko na magsulat na muna habang kinakausap ng boss ko yung isa naming opismate. eh may kailangan kasi akong i coordinate sa kanya kaso nga busy pa sya.

kaya eto, gusto ko lang mag vent ng nararamdaman ko, dito na lang muna sa blog kasi wala pa akong nakakausap na matino.

i really miss my bhe, she took off for netherlands and she'll be staying there for a year. there's not a single day that i don't think about her. there are times that i really have to shake the thought out of my head just to continue with my tasks here at work... and it's not easy.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, haaaaaaaaaaaaay, at isa pang haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay ang hirap pala ng ganito, para akong alcoholic na tumigil sa pag inom ng alak. sa pag aalala ko sa kanya eh napa search ako sa google for information about netherlands. nalaman ko na amsterdam pala ang capital nito, maraming windmills and blazing flower fields, dutch ang language, the weather is mostly gray, locals wouldn't mind what you do for as long as you don't harm others, at kung anu ano pa. haaaay lalu ko lang yata na miss si bhe. gusto ko na nga umuwi eh kaso may kailangan pa akong tapusin dito sa office.

ang hirap, parang lagi akong may hinahanap, lagi akong di mapakali, at natutulala. parang gusto ko umiyak na ayaw kung minsan. ano bang nangyayari saken? haaaaaaaaaay!!!

naisip ko rin na baka nahihirapan din sya dun, kung ako nga eh kasama ko ang pamilya at kaibigan ko ay ganito na ako, lalu na siguro sya.

God, miss ko lang po talaga sya, please continue to guide and protect her. please help us and our relationship to be strong. i know you're in control and ultimately it's you who gives us comfort to whatever that bothers us.

i feel like i need a long vacation... di pa naman ako sanay na ako yung naiiwan. iniisip ko na lang na mabilis lang naman yung isang taon eh. pero ang tagal pa rin eh!!! sniff sniff sniff =(

"trust in the Lord with all your heart and
lean not on your own understanding. in
all your ways acknowledge Him and He will
make your paths straight." - Prov. 3:5-6

"missing you"

feeling the depths of loneliness
embracing the memory of your absence
as daylight turns to darkness
yearning, mourning for your presence

an empty park is all i see
a place with you, this i know
our happy memories follow me
visions of you everywhere i go

a purpose in everything
to trust without something to hold
to all things an ending
in your arms again, happiness unfolds

~*~*~*~

iba yata talaga pag na de depress ako,
nakakagawa ako ng poem ng di oras.
ginawa bang outlet?!?! haaaaaaaaaay
i really miss you bhe!