outlet part 2

saturday:

the feeling of missing someone has the tendency to make
me feel depressed and lonely so i decided to go to american
cemetery to give myself time to grieve and pacify all the
things that i've been feeling. this is the time when i really
appreciate that i have someone whom i can talk to anytime
that i want, someone whom i can cry and just express all
the burdens that my heart carries. i appreciate all the more
the relationship that i have with God especially right now
that someone who's so dear to me is far away.

it was a peaceful and rainy afternoon that day, i forgot to
bring along my umbrella so i got a bit wet. i felt God's
comfort when a cold and gentle breeze passed by while
i prayed. it was soothing and refreshing, i felt like God
wanted me to experience how it's like to be in amsterdam
hehehe =) anyways, i really had a great time and i read
some scriptures in the book of ecclesiates where solomon
wrote how everything like pleasure, wisdom, fame, etc.,
are meaningless, that there's a time for everything, and
how God made everything beautiful in it's time.

afterwards, i went to glorietta to meet my sister and have
a date with her. we watched the movie 'must love dogs'.
we had to wait for a while so we can watch it from the
start. so we decided to go to national bookstore to spend
some time and browse some books. i browsed a booke
written by bo sanchez, it's about how our past lives should
not hinder us from having a fulfilled future. it's a very very
very good read. i appreciate bo's courage and humility in
sharing how God radically changed his life and his
perspective about our our failures and how we can use it
as a motivation to pursue a happy life. time is up, we went
on to watch the movie.

it was a romantic comedy film, a feel good movie. we
wanted to watch 'if only' but we weren't sure if it was
replaced already or is not yet showing. also, i wanted
to see the part where the line 'what would you do if you
were given the chance to be with someone that you
lost?' was asked. anyways, the movie ended where
couples from the movie shared how they met their
partners. i smiled while i watched this part because it
made me think of how me and donna met. we both
didn't know what was coming hehehe.

sunday:

we(dad, erwin, candy, tito base, tita leni, tito chris, and
kuya butch) went to chinese general hospital early in the
morning to donate blood for my cousin's heart operation.
this is my second time to donate blood but i was still
scared of the needle that would be sticked in my arm.
we ate at ping ping's lechon for our lunch.

after our sunday worship service, my family had a get
together at glorietta for dinner. i had to leave earlier
because i still have to visit my bhe's parents in cavite
to spend time with them. nanay was waiting for me, she
told me that bhe's lola and some of her aunts also
waited but they left already. nanay and i had a great talk.
she advised me to be strong and to cheer up and to
continue on with my life as if nothing's changed. she
got teary eyed when she told me how donna was being
strong not only for me but for them as well. that her
situation is harder because we're all here and she's
alone in a place far away from us. we talked some
more and i went home already.

i had a busy and productive week... but i still miss her,
and love her more everyday.


for the boys