november rain

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.

- Courtney Kuchta -

~*~*~*~

tag-ulan na naman *sigh*

when the going gets tough...

overtime, overtime, and overtime @ work

for the spirit:

Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.
-psalm 27:14

Watch and pray so that
you will not fall into
temptation. The spirit is
willing, but the body is weak.
-matthew 26:41

for the body:



been drinking this for the
past days... and somehow
it helps

Thank God It's Friday!?!?!?

i came in the office today late not because i woke
up late or left the house late. it wasn't because
of heavy traffic either. it's an irritating reason why
i was late today.

it's because the bus i rode caught the green
light of the traffic light near the bus stop i was to
step off. i ended up having to walk 15 minutes going
back to place where i was supposed to alight.
#$%#$$%$#% and top it off with a sunny sunny day
and hot weather.

i kept my cool, got my umbrella and went on my way.
and to make things brighter, i knew that jaywalking
is strictly prohibited here in alabang, i even saw
the signs "no jaywalking". i was already in a hurry
because of the bus-stop-problem, and so i saw
the people crossing the streets on the pedestrian
lane, the problem was it wasn't really visible already
so you wouldn't know or care less if you were inside
the boarders of the lane or not. i thought, well i'm
in the right area, and besides i'm crossing with
the other folks but just a bit away from me and i don't
want to be late and you know what happened???

yes, i was caught... @#$%@#$%#$% and to think that
i have just dealt with the bus-stop-problem, here
comes another one #$%#$%#$ crap!!! this is insane!!!
i complained right on the spot and told the officers
that i was on the right crossing area but they told
me that they wouldn't have me caught if i did the
right thing. frustrated, i thought there's no way of
convincing these folks to reconsider. i ened up
going to the barangay hall to either be fined P100
or to do community service for 2 hours.

*sigh* i'm already late because of the stupid bus-
stop-problem and this jaywalking-problem. what
could make things worse??? yes there's another
one. i bring my exact allowance enought to spend
for my whole day at work. i do this so i can
discipline myself and have my savings. anyway,
i can widthraw anytime from a nearby atm in case
of emergency.

and so i had to walk again to a nearby mall that has
an atm. it slashed another 20 minutes just to pay for
the fine that i wasn't supposed to be paying for in the
first place and to think that my company would
also have my salary deducted because of being late.
#$@%#$%#$% having sweat all over, i got in the office
at 9:03am which was supposed to be at 8:15am.
i went straight to the comfort room to freshen up
and have a breather. what a way to start you day!!!
nevertheless, i have a lot of lessons learned from what
happened earlier. i'm done venting, TGIF!!! i'll just
enjoy the rest of the day.. back to work NOW!!! =)

weekend events

had an online date with bhe last saturday, we chatted
for 3 hours. afterwards, i went to glorietta to buy gifts
and to pray at oakwoods park. interestingly, a stranger
(a boy)approached me and solicited for monetary support
that will be used to support scholarship for less fortunate
students. in return, i would get a calendar with an
image of Jesus and other saints. he sells it for P50.
i refused and told him that i have a different belief but
he offered a ballpen instead for the same amount. to cut
the long story short, i bought one and i asked him what
motivated him to do this kind of stuff. he said, though
it was hard for him at first, it was his desire to help
that urged him to do so. this boy has a good heart,
i ended up inviting him to our church.

then we celebrated minnie and mitch's birthday last
sunday, after our service at KFC greenbelt. i gave
hand-made soaps to both of them as gifts. the soaps
were made using strawberry and cucumber. i also gave
ethel a little "the dog" keychain as my post-bday gift
to her.

also, gary gave a treat for the birthday celebrants.
we had a sharing session for the two before the
celebration ended.

"on leave" events

had a busy day yesterday, i took a leave
from work to arrange my payments for
the monthly amortization of the lot i
acquired and monthly dues for my
retirement plan. funny because i bumped
into an old college friend while i was on
my way to ortigas.

afterwards, i went to glorietta and thought
of watching a movie because it's been
a long time, i think the last i've seen was
"must love dogs". i'd like to watch "land
of the dead" but i was too scared to watch
it alone. i can manage watching horror
movies as long as i have my girlfriend or at
least someone with me. since i'm alone i
just decided to watch a chinese action
movie (i forgot the title hehehe). i felt a bit
miserable because of watching a movie
alone, not like before where i have bhe
with me, and because the movie sucked.

senti

"my morning starts to shine with teardrops in my eyes
and here i am alone starting to realize..."

as i and my batchmates were having brunch at the canteen
in our office today, i heard a song having the lyrics above.

i heard this song played over the radio many times before,
it really didn't have an effect on me except for today.
it really struck my heart as if it wants to fall down my chest.

ewan ko, na s senti na naman siguro ako... *sigh*
buti naubos ko pa yung food na inorder ko, para kasing
wala akong gana kumain lately :(

worried and stressed out (outlet part 3)

shigoto ha mainichi, mainichi
taihen desuyou(it's so tiring everyday at work)!
i'm really feeling the idea of being a corporate
slave. i've been working overtime in the office
for two straight weeks, extending my work
hours up to 9pm and sometimes up to 10pm in
the evening.

i never dreamed of being a workaholic, really!
*sigh* i haven't finished working on my current
module and there's another one waiting in line.
bad trip! soreha totemo tsukaremashita (i'm so
tired of it)!

in my pursuit to find a motivation for all this
corporate crap, i just thought of the plans and
goals tha i've set in my life. one of which is
the lot i acquired last year. i'm done paying
the downpayment just this month, and so i have
a couple of extra bucks to save for future
investments. also, all of the loans that i have
will be over by the end of this year, yay!!!

one thing that's been bothering me lately
is that i haven't heard from my bhe since
yesterday.. and i'm starting to worry already.
i never thought that it would be so hard
being far away from the person you love so
dearly. i don't wanna worry about it too much
because it can affect my job, but it's so hard
not to be concerned of her.

please God help me to trust in you, that
you won't let something bad happen to bhe,
that you would always keep her safe,
and that you would help us to be strong for
each other and to trust in you always.

it's comforting to know that "you won't
let us be tempted beyond what we can
bear". i know you allowed this situation
in our lives because we can overcome.
help us to have faith and to trust in You.

quote

"If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it"

outlet part 2

saturday:

the feeling of missing someone has the tendency to make
me feel depressed and lonely so i decided to go to american
cemetery to give myself time to grieve and pacify all the
things that i've been feeling. this is the time when i really
appreciate that i have someone whom i can talk to anytime
that i want, someone whom i can cry and just express all
the burdens that my heart carries. i appreciate all the more
the relationship that i have with God especially right now
that someone who's so dear to me is far away.

it was a peaceful and rainy afternoon that day, i forgot to
bring along my umbrella so i got a bit wet. i felt God's
comfort when a cold and gentle breeze passed by while
i prayed. it was soothing and refreshing, i felt like God
wanted me to experience how it's like to be in amsterdam
hehehe =) anyways, i really had a great time and i read
some scriptures in the book of ecclesiates where solomon
wrote how everything like pleasure, wisdom, fame, etc.,
are meaningless, that there's a time for everything, and
how God made everything beautiful in it's time.

afterwards, i went to glorietta to meet my sister and have
a date with her. we watched the movie 'must love dogs'.
we had to wait for a while so we can watch it from the
start. so we decided to go to national bookstore to spend
some time and browse some books. i browsed a booke
written by bo sanchez, it's about how our past lives should
not hinder us from having a fulfilled future. it's a very very
very good read. i appreciate bo's courage and humility in
sharing how God radically changed his life and his
perspective about our our failures and how we can use it
as a motivation to pursue a happy life. time is up, we went
on to watch the movie.

it was a romantic comedy film, a feel good movie. we
wanted to watch 'if only' but we weren't sure if it was
replaced already or is not yet showing. also, i wanted
to see the part where the line 'what would you do if you
were given the chance to be with someone that you
lost?' was asked. anyways, the movie ended where
couples from the movie shared how they met their
partners. i smiled while i watched this part because it
made me think of how me and donna met. we both
didn't know what was coming hehehe.

sunday:

we(dad, erwin, candy, tito base, tita leni, tito chris, and
kuya butch) went to chinese general hospital early in the
morning to donate blood for my cousin's heart operation.
this is my second time to donate blood but i was still
scared of the needle that would be sticked in my arm.
we ate at ping ping's lechon for our lunch.

after our sunday worship service, my family had a get
together at glorietta for dinner. i had to leave earlier
because i still have to visit my bhe's parents in cavite
to spend time with them. nanay was waiting for me, she
told me that bhe's lola and some of her aunts also
waited but they left already. nanay and i had a great talk.
she advised me to be strong and to cheer up and to
continue on with my life as if nothing's changed. she
got teary eyed when she told me how donna was being
strong not only for me but for them as well. that her
situation is harder because we're all here and she's
alone in a place far away from us. we talked some
more and i went home already.

i had a busy and productive week... but i still miss her,
and love her more everyday.


for the boys

outlet 1 (series ito!!!)

haaaay, naisipan ko na magsulat na muna habang kinakausap ng boss ko yung isa naming opismate. eh may kailangan kasi akong i coordinate sa kanya kaso nga busy pa sya.

kaya eto, gusto ko lang mag vent ng nararamdaman ko, dito na lang muna sa blog kasi wala pa akong nakakausap na matino.

i really miss my bhe, she took off for netherlands and she'll be staying there for a year. there's not a single day that i don't think about her. there are times that i really have to shake the thought out of my head just to continue with my tasks here at work... and it's not easy.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, haaaaaaaaaaaaay, at isa pang haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay ang hirap pala ng ganito, para akong alcoholic na tumigil sa pag inom ng alak. sa pag aalala ko sa kanya eh napa search ako sa google for information about netherlands. nalaman ko na amsterdam pala ang capital nito, maraming windmills and blazing flower fields, dutch ang language, the weather is mostly gray, locals wouldn't mind what you do for as long as you don't harm others, at kung anu ano pa. haaaay lalu ko lang yata na miss si bhe. gusto ko na nga umuwi eh kaso may kailangan pa akong tapusin dito sa office.

ang hirap, parang lagi akong may hinahanap, lagi akong di mapakali, at natutulala. parang gusto ko umiyak na ayaw kung minsan. ano bang nangyayari saken? haaaaaaaaaay!!!

naisip ko rin na baka nahihirapan din sya dun, kung ako nga eh kasama ko ang pamilya at kaibigan ko ay ganito na ako, lalu na siguro sya.

God, miss ko lang po talaga sya, please continue to guide and protect her. please help us and our relationship to be strong. i know you're in control and ultimately it's you who gives us comfort to whatever that bothers us.

i feel like i need a long vacation... di pa naman ako sanay na ako yung naiiwan. iniisip ko na lang na mabilis lang naman yung isang taon eh. pero ang tagal pa rin eh!!! sniff sniff sniff =(

"trust in the Lord with all your heart and
lean not on your own understanding. in
all your ways acknowledge Him and He will
make your paths straight." - Prov. 3:5-6

"missing you"

feeling the depths of loneliness
embracing the memory of your absence
as daylight turns to darkness
yearning, mourning for your presence

an empty park is all i see
a place with you, this i know
our happy memories follow me
visions of you everywhere i go

a purpose in everything
to trust without something to hold
to all things an ending
in your arms again, happiness unfolds

~*~*~*~

iba yata talaga pag na de depress ako,
nakakagawa ako ng poem ng di oras.
ginawa bang outlet?!?! haaaaaaaaaay
i really miss you bhe!

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

first bump

bakit kaya ang mga babae ang hirap i-spell-ingin pag minsan? after five months of a smooth sailing relationship, for the first time, we had a bump. i can sense that she has a problem eventhough she says she's ok. how can i help if she won't tell me?

i wish i had psychic powers, unfortunately i can't read her mind.

*sigh*

my first nephew =)

name: virgil zachary b. quita
born: July 8, 2005, 3:30pm
weight: 5.0 lbs

proud father: erwin u. quita
loving mother: jonalyn b. quita


inside the nursery room


under the hood =)


awwwww, so cute!!!


proud grandparents =)


my turn!?

baguio jubiliee

with churchmates


@ botanical park

spent time in baguio for our jubiliee from apr 30 to may 1. we had a great time strolling around teachers camp, site seeing at minesview, and shopping at burnham(did i spell it right?) park's nearby market.

after our nihongo training, i'm still intoxicated because of our technical traning which is being conducted as of the moment. i barely have time to blog... waaaaaaaaaah!

www.ibatayo.com eyeball

what's up ya'll? haven't posted for quite some time now, just to keep up with this month's events.. i'm still busy with my training in nihongo and we'll be having our level 3 exam at the end of the month argh!



@ figaro greenbelt 3, makati (baby, me, jhonjie, dude)

holy week wa doko e ikimashita ka?

(where did i go during the holy week) the text i got from sato sensei.

my family and i went to my sister's house in GMA, cavite where we spent our holy week. we had a great time playing scrabble, watching tv, eating, and swimming. if i had the time to elaborate all the things we did i'd share it unfortunately, i don't... pics na lang =)


a walk in the park


to beat the summer heat


gf, mum, pungok, and buro


family pic


my twin bro(erwin) won the game =)


me and my baby

"you're the only one who can make me fly..."

it's almost 2 months now since i started my training in nihongo... i had a hard time at first because of the project turnover i had to do from my previous company after having my nihongo class in the morning. right now, i'm bouncing back slowy and i give all the credit to God. my grades have improved and i'm hoping to maintain, if not, make it higher. if it not had been for the convictions i acquired from my being a christian(regarding perseverance and patience), i would have given up my training already.

last sunday, i watched the movie "hitch" @ greenbelt1 together with my girlfriend and some of our friends. it was a funny movie... i loved all the quotes in the script and also the lines regarding "if a man straightforwardly says i like you".

it's a good movie... a 'feel-good' movie to sum it up.

enough kwento... have to go home and study already!

monthsary... yes, it exists =)

"surrender"

once a soul with no direction
a shameful life and worldly motivation
unaware and ignorant of my actions
not knowing my life's destination



no peace living a selfish life
only darkness surrounds my sight
the life i find worth living
so dull, empty, and boring

where is the light i seek
a troubled soul is hard to keep
tired of living this kind of life
full of darkness and full of strife

worldly things kept me distracted
brought me low and left me wasted
empty handed and all alone
'twas the moment i found my home

this experience made me wonder
all i had to do was SURRENDER
a meaningful life after the pain
a wonderful sight after the rain



~~~*~~~

this is a poem i wrote inside the card i gave to my girlfriend on our 1st monthsary. we had a great time with our friends, celebrating our first month together. we had dinner at el cuento @ glorietta4, talked a while @ starbucks 7650 and gave her the card together with a wallet-size pic of us.

that's all for now... back to overtime work!!! *sigh*

i have my limitations...

and when the going gets though, it's God's grace that keeps me going.

thank you God for strengthening me when i'm weak.

~~~*~~~

My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness. —2 Corinthians 12:9

so far so hard...

it's not easy being a nihongo gakkusei (japanese student [direct english translation]), i've been memorizing japanese vocabularies since day one. my brain gets drained at the end of the day because of the all the things we're doing in our class. a quiz first thing in the morning, lesson afterwards, then a 10min break, resume lesson, lunch break, study SFJ, composition, 10 minute break, hearing, and another quiz before the class ends... and this is done EVERYDAY!!! argh!!!

it's a good thing that i have a guitar at home so i can be relieved after a stressful day...

also, i'm excited for a post valentine date... i'm planning to watch a concert together with my kanojoo(girlfriend) and some of my churchmates. hopefully things will push through. anyways, it's a concert i knew of because of the wonderful world of blogging =). credit goes out to daxi ;) anyone else who's interested?!?!?! =)



enough venting... that's all for now folks... utchi e kaitaidesu (i'm going back home).

sayonara!!!